LEISURE, ARE YOU SURE?
It starts from the evening before your last
paper. You are sitting on a chair facing towards the window. You have a book in
your hand which you don’t even care whether it is upside down. Just like your
concentration, the mobile phone’s notification light is flickering. You are
constantly checking your Facebook and WhatsApp.
Even staring at the wall and thinking of what
you will be doing tomorrow evening is rather interesting than the matter you are
studying. You have a million plans of spending your vacations, and ideas just
keep shuffling in your mind. That night you stay up late trying to study a
little bit seriously so at least the next day after the paper you don’t repent
on what you wrote.
The next day arrives which you have been
waiting for weeks. You try dressing up a little more immaculately than usual, as
today is not any other day. You take your bag pack wish a goodbye to your mom
and head on towards the few last hours of the academic torture. Due to the excitement
and the eagerness of completing the paper you finish it well before time. And there it is! Its over! A 3 month vacation
has started with the submission of the paper to the invigilator.
That moment the feeling is very empty,
clueless, whether to celebrate or no. The level of excitement is so much that
you get confused as to what should be your reaction. You meet friends, they are
making plans of celebration, they are as happy as you are. But you are still
wondering as to why are you not feeling that moment of liberation?
Because you have Grown Up. The way you used to
run around in school screaming and letting the world know that your exams are
over. Now it is not a big deal because according to your routine you are
accustomed to do an activity every now and then.
The idea of Vacation where you just have to
relax and do nothing that thought looks attractive from a distance but in real it’s
a Mirage. The thought of doing nothing at all and just enjoying frightens you.
That’s the reason from the very first day of the vacation you start getting
bored.
You start the missing the studies which you had
wanted to get rid of, some 12 hours ago. The million ideas and plans which had
popped up while you were studying suddenly all of them dissolve in the
emptiness of your mind and you again find yourself in the same chair facing
towards the window with your phone kept aside with a flickering notification
light!