LEISURE, ARE YOU SURE?

It starts from the evening before your last paper. You are sitting on a chair facing towards the window. You have a book in your hand which you don’t even care whether it is upside down. Just like your concentration, the mobile phone’s notification light is flickering. You are constantly checking your Facebook and WhatsApp.

Even staring at the wall and thinking of what you will be doing tomorrow evening is rather interesting than the matter you are studying. You have a million plans of spending your vacations, and ideas just keep shuffling in your mind. That night you stay up late trying to study a little bit seriously so at least the next day after the paper you don’t repent on what you wrote.
The next day arrives which you have been waiting for weeks. You try dressing up a little more immaculately than usual, as today is not any other day. You take your bag pack wish a goodbye to your mom and head on towards the few last hours of the academic torture. Due to the excitement and the eagerness of completing the paper you finish it well before time.     And there it is! Its over! A 3 month vacation has started with the submission of the paper to the invigilator. 

That moment the feeling is very empty, clueless, whether to celebrate or no. The level of excitement is so much that you get confused as to what should be your reaction. You meet friends, they are making plans of celebration, they are as happy as you are. But you are still wondering as to why are you not feeling that moment of liberation?

Because you have Grown Up. The way you used to run around in school screaming and letting the world know that your exams are over. Now it is not a big deal because according to your routine you are accustomed to do an activity every now and then.

The idea of Vacation where you just have to relax and do nothing that thought looks attractive from a distance but in real it’s a Mirage. The thought of doing nothing at all and just enjoying frightens you. That’s the reason from the very first day of the vacation you start getting bored.
You start the missing the studies which you had wanted to get rid of, some 12 hours ago. The million ideas and plans which had popped up while you were studying suddenly all of them dissolve in the emptiness of your mind and you again find yourself in the same chair facing towards the window with your phone kept aside with a flickering notification light!